May Hitouts Notice

Hullo, everyone!

I’m here to put up a notice that I’ll be on a short hitout during May–and here are the reasons.

i. In which I get a new job

Yes, that’s right! I’m now happily working at a tutoring centre that offers anything from phonics to college prep (like the SATs and the ACTs). I love this job because I love studying and helping others find joy in it, but it’s a lot of work–and not to mention I have classes on Saturdays. So, until I get used to the routine and finish my training, I don’t think it’s realistic for me to be posting on Saturdays. And as you might know, Saturdays are special days for me–so I would like to continue blogging on that day. Hopefully, I’ll be back by the end of this month to tell you all about May in my Afternoon Tea post.

ii. In which I try to write. To the end.

Another thing I’m attempting this month is to finish my 0.5 draft of Osthauptstadt. I’ve been working on and off on this WIP, and I think if I push through, I might be able to finish this draft…

Which is kind of a big deal.

Okay, every WIP that has a tentative “The End” is a big deal, but this one especially–it was the WIP I started during the pandemic which sort of grew with me throughout that time. Also, I haven’t been able to see a WIP to the end in about three years. ( ; ›ω‹ )

So, (again), hopefully, I will be able to keep plugging away at my draft till I reach the end.

iii. In which I try to re-focus my total brand identity.

Recently, I found Notion, the dream online journal/planner/organizer thing I totally didn’t know I needed. While sorting out my tasks on there (like work, school, &c.), I realised it’s been a long due to taking a review on what I do here on the blog as SJ Barnard–and elsewhere.

I love blogging, and as it’s something that sparks joy inside me, I will continue doing it. But I think I need to reassess where I’m at and also have more cohesiveness on places like IG (which I disappear off from on a regular basis).

But overall, thank you for being an SJ reader & being patient with me as I figure things out! I will see you at the end of May. ⸜( ´ ꒳ ` )⸝♡︎

 April ‘22 Afternoon Tea with SJ

Good Afternoon!

Saturday is always like a Sabbath to me, and I’m always really thankful & overjoyed when the week reaches Saturday…it’s probably my favourite day of the week!

I was actually debating whether or not to write this post today because I have a midterm in the afternoon (on Saturday, I’ll add once again), and it’s my comp-sci one that I’ve been dreading since the start of this term. 

But. 

Instead of having another cram session, I’ve decided to let go & trust God…I’ve studied for it and done the best I can for it. I just have to trust in that. 

So here I am! I’m so excited to share my April with you…

-March Afternoon Tea ‘22 Setting-

Location: sunny garden with spring flowers

Tea: strawberry-rose-champagne, sakura-blossom, apple-vinegar elderflower

Offered with: sakura mont blanc, amazake-pudding, sakura cider jello

Bibliotheca 

I wasn’t planning to get a lot of reading down, and I was right–April was a slower reading month than usual. But I did read a lot of academic essays which was kind of fun on the retrospective. ⸜( ´ ꒳ ` )⸝

  1. Chinmoku (Silence) – Shusaku Endo
  2. Following in Van Gough’s Footsteps – Maha Harada
  3. The Last Graduate – Naomi Novik
  4. Why We Watch Anime – Ryota Fujitsu
  5. Reading While Black
  6. Kamen no Kokuhaku (Confessions of a Mask) – Yukio Mishima

Currently Reading: Subculture Literature Theory, The Living Thoughts of Kierkegaard

Media 

I wholeheartedly endorsed the sakura-themed sweets and first-ever sakura blossom tea! (Also a fun fact: In Japanese elementary schools–or at least the one I used to go to–we have an unofficial sakura-catching competition. The person who catches the most sakura gets to eat it!) 

Music 

This month, I listened to a lot more music than I usually do. It’s probably because my stress level was record-breakingly high from exam seasons, IDK…

I also want to get into Black Pink for some strange reason? So, I’ve started listening to them…(But I wouldn’t say I know a lot about them yet! I’m like a neophyte-fan, maybe??)

Practising: The Rumbling, Sakamu, Miracle Link Ring!

Listening to:  King Gnu, Buckingham (Wednesday Campanella), Glue

Movie/TV Shows 

Because I was busy with uni (trying not to die, TBH), I didn’t have a lot of chance to watch movies or tv shows…

Except.

I

FINALLY

GOT TO 

SEE 

JUJUTSU KAISEN 0 IN THE THEATRES!!!!!!!!

(Okay, enough of this nonsense. But you get the idea.)

Manga/Anime

And, if you are familiar with the recent anime releases, Spy x Family has officially started! I’ve been a fan since the start of the serialisation, so this is a very historical and dramatic moment for me. Also, GOLDEN KAMUY IS ENDING. I still can’t believe it…But the good news is, Young Jump (Tonari no Young Jump) is offering a free reading from start to finish. So, if you can read Japanese, now is the time to go read GK 😉 

& yet another thing. (I know, there’s more??)

My dad (who also happens to be into anime) has recently lent me his login info for anime websites, so now, *inserts evil laughter* I have infinite access to it. After uni ends, I’m planning to go on a binge if I can evade my siblings… (꜆꜄•ω•)꜆꜄꜆

Writing Life 

How about a glass of apple-vinegar elderflower tea? I just love elderflower because it gives me that spring-summer vibes I am perpetually falling in love with. ꒰ ∩´∇ `∩꒱

This month was supposed to be a typing month (i.e. that time when I type up my handwritten manuscripts). Needless to say, it’s still got a long way to go…I think I only managed a few chapters of Woodstone? But then again Woodstone is insanely long??

Hopefully, I’ll get more time to type up my draft so I can either continue on with this draft and/or work on another WIP from May when I’m planning to do more “serious” writing. (   ¯꒳¯ )b✧

Academics 

Oh, and have you tried the amazake pudding? Amazake is a kind of rice wine without alcohol that’s typically served on Girls’ Day (March 3rd) in Japan! It has a distinct flavour and some people find it too singular a taste, but I personally love it, not to mention it’s super healthy for you. 

As you might have already surmised, April is the end of term & the end of my first year at university. (Which is totally unbelievable, btw.) 

Things I’m Glad That’s Over:

  • Comp-sci project. Like, so done with significant computing and everything. 
  • Poli-sci finals. I was pretty confident about this one, except my grades were not what I expected it to be. Oh well…
  • Arts Academic Essay. This one is a whopping twenty-page long academic paper on Austen’s novel form and Emma. I want to burn it if I can. 

Overall, I’m so blessed that I could spend a year filled to the brim with learning, new opportunities & new people. It’s sad saying goodbye to some of them but I hope to see them again (perchance) somewhere on the vast campus. Also, I’m taking courses during the summer so I won’t completely laze off & forget how to study. 

(´ฅω•ฅ`)チラッ

Lifestyle & Living

My mental health sort of deteriorated towards the end of this month (aka this week, because of finals & stuff) and it hailed a lot? Like, I think we had a week where it was hailing non-stop, then become sunny, then thunderstorm-y. It’s usually really nice in April so I was not expecting this bizarre weather but go figure. Other than that, the cherry blossoms were dazzling as they are every year and I (probably) got a job at a tutoring centre so things are okay. (You know, when all things considered.)

And that’s life for me 🙂

And they shall fight against thee, and they shall not have the mastery; for I am with thee, saith the Lord, that I deliver thee. (And they shall fight against thee, but they shall not have the mastery; for I am with thee, saith the Lord, and I shall keep thee safe.)

(Jeremiah 1:19, WYC)

Thank you for reading! How was your April? Is it spring where you live? (And if so, do you like spring?) What are some things that happened this month that was exciting for you? Let me know in the comments below; I’d love to chat with you!

March ‘22 Afternoon Tea with SJ

Good Afternoon to you!

The cherry blossoms are coming into full bloom all over the place & it’s another Saturday…my favourite day of the week.  ⸜( ´ ꒳ ` )⸝♡︎Despite everything that’s happened this week & this month, I’m grateful to have a time to sit and reflect on the month.  

So, without further ado, let me present to you March ‘22 Afternoon Tea with SJ!

-March Afternoon Tea ‘22 Setting-

Location: sunny loft

Tea: Lavender london fog, Lady Grey, Asian pear green tea

Offered with:  strawberry steamed cake, apple baumkuchen-tart, black sesame ice cream

This month, I suffered from tsundoku-syndrome…that is, I had a stack of books I was planning to read. Which I did for some of them, as you’ll find out later down the road. But overall, much like last month, I felt like I wasn’t as into reading as I would have liked since I was burnt out from uni &c. 

  1. Modern Translation Rongo to Soroban –Eiichi Shibusawa
  2. On the Genealogy of Morality -Friedrich Nietzsche
  3. Chosen Ones –Veronica Roth
  4. Science Fiction –Sherryl Vint
  5. Heike Monogatari (The Tale of Heike) –Anonymous
  6. Ares –Jenna Terese
  7. The Phantom Tollbooth –Norton Juster
  8. Inadvertent –Karl Ove Knausgård
  9. The Use and Abuse of History –Friedrich Nietzsche
  10. Geijutsu to Kagaku no Aida (Between Art and History) –Shinichi Fukuoka
  11. Meditations –Marcus Aurelius
  12. If Not, Winter –Sappho
  13. Haru to Shura (Spring And Asura) –Kenji Miyazawa

But now that I look back, I’m actually surprised to find I did get to read the books I enjoyed (except Nietzsche, obviously). Maybe it’s just this week that fell flat??

Currently Reading: Ethics (Bonhoeffer), The Last Graduate (Novik), The Art of Fiction (Gardner)

More tea, anyone? The lavender London fog is absolutely gorgeous, not to mention the asian pear!

Music 

Since I went on a long music rant last week, I won’t elaborate on this topic…But in case you missed it, here’s the link to last week’s post: the me + music tag / 2022 edition

Practising: Sinfonia concertante k.364, The Rumbling

Listening to: Tchaikovsky symphony no.5-6

Movie/TV Shows 

Since it’s March, a lot of the TV shows are ending in Japan–which is equal parts sad…and equal parts sad. (Okay, that made no sense whatsoever. But you get the idea.) Anyhow. (*∩ω∩)

Current favourites:

  • DCU–Deep Crime Unit…I WAS NOT EXPECTING THE CLIFF HANGER!!! I have a love-hate relationship with cliff-hangers, and this one is bordering on absolutely hating the directors rather than loving them. (Or maybe not. I am excited for another season, but still!!)
  • Mystery to iu nakare–Do not say it is a mystery…I’ve been recently finding out that the actor who plays the MC, Suda Masaki, is also the singer who did an MHA ending that I LOVE to pieces (Long-Hope-Philia, in case you were wondering). My life has been a lie…
  • And various others…from April, though, I plan to cut back the number of TV shows we watch (ˉ ˘ ˉ; )

Manga/Anime

I haven’t read manga in a while since the Golden Kamuy-phase, so I’m going to invest myself in a somewhat new series–Blue Period, which a lot of people have been recommending to me. Also, the library recently placed the orders for Bungo Stray Dogs up to the current English volume, which I’m thrilled about! 

AND. 

THE JUJUTSU KAISEN MOVIE 0 IS OFFICIALLY IN THE THEATRES!!!

*inserts blood-curdling shrieks*

No, I’m not dead yet. I can’t wait to go to the theatres wearing my Gojo Satoru T-shirt, though!!

ଘ(੭ˊ꒳​ˋ)੭✧

So, writing. 

This month has seen some progress in re-working my WIP (Juliet) although it almost always seems to feel like I’m suffering from a severe case of indigestion. In the last WIP update, I was going to talk more in-depth about the specific process I had which is honestly kind of cool, since I’m writing/organising a lot of the data in Python.

Yes, you heard that right. Since starting to learn coding in one of my uni courses, I started implementing some of the language into how I set up my Juliet re-work. It sounds a bit strange, but for some weird reason, this works for me–maybe because I’m taking a step back from the language I know best (plain English prose) and actually thinking about what to write in a different one (Python–also English, but not really). 

I’ve also been using my journal & Google Jamboard a lot just to set a basis for my schedule and brain-dumps. Overall, I’m more hopeful for this WIP than I had been in the past, and can’t wait to see where it will go.

꒰ ∩´∇ `∩꒱

Have you tried the strawberry steamed cake? Or the apple baumkuchen-tart? It’s this tree-stump-like cake with apples. And this baumkuchen is a bit like a tart as well! (I recently learnt that baumkuchen isn’t a standard dessert in North America or Europe.) 

I survived my midterms. 

And yet. 

Nietzsche. Has been. Driving me. Crazy!!

I’m in this program where we read a book every week and write an essay every other week. This month, I had to write on Nietzsche–hence I proceeded to get a stack of Nietzsche to decipher him. 

Which was not working. (I did eventually end up finishing the paper, but late.)

I am so glad we’re done with him. And here’s a quip most people might know but is still entertaining:

Nietzsche: “God is dead.”

God: “Nietzsche is dead.”

Lastly, a bit about life.

Because of many things that seem to demand my attention, I’ve been burnt out a lot. This post was supposed to be posted much earlier, too. And sometimes, it’s so hard not to stress. 

But I know that what really matters in life are the small things and how we get to places, not when. 

So, I’m learning to be okay with not being able to do everything. Even then, God’s grace is sufficient in me. 

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

(2 Corinthians 12:9, NIV)

And that’s it for today!

Thank you for reading! How was your March? What are some things that happened this month that were exciting for you? Are you looking forward to April? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below; I’d love to chat with you!